January Goals

Keep believing that things will get better.

It's 11:11PM and I am typing this post with the hopes of being able to finish it by midnight. It's the last day of the month of January, and as late and futile as it may seem (and it undoubtedly is), I will still share what my goal is/was for this month.

To be honest, I tried to come up with a list of goals that pretty much aligned with the previous ones. I wanted something specific and concrete -- something that can be ticked off easily once they are done.

Perhaps, it is a conspiracy spearheaded by my subconscious. Being relatively young and dazed and undecided in many aspects of real life, perhaps I am subconsiously luring myself into a facade of control and productivity. Perhaps, my subconscious has planned this whole "monthly goals list" so I can say at the end of each month that I have at least done and achieved something.

But I digress.

To be frank, this month of January pretty much belongs to the "could've been better" category. I had spend three weeks out of the office, isolated and working at home, thanks to a bout of measles (and apparently dengue, which I can't really believe) that had bloomed out of nowhere. I committed myself to doing a 365 Writing Project which has so far not progressed as well as I hoped -- I realize that this was a not-so good idea, given that I already wrote for a living and by the end of each day, I am out of energy to write something just for the heck of it.

It's safe to say that I'm pretty much bummed about how things played out. I wasn't even able to whip some graphics up for this post.

It's like one gigantic pity party of one that's not pitiful enough.

Which would make it just a party of one, which is not so great as well.

Do you get what I'm saying? Me neither.

Hence, the goal.

As I write these words down, it is now 11:50PM. It's ten minutes 'til February.

And did I mention that I'll be going to Zambales this weekend for a getaway? I can't wait. I'm excited.

I feel better already.

So, I guess in the end, I was able to accomplish my goal for January, huh?